"When the student is ready, the teacher will come" Old Chinese proverb
When we are ready, does love come along? I'm not sure the right kind of love does come around until we are truly ready. Love involves a lot of growth. To be ready to share your life with someone, you need to have your house in order. For me, the times I've been most successful in finding love have been when I was happy and moving forward with plenty of momentum in my life. It's hard to feel attractive and confident when you feel like you are spinning your wheels. I think it's quite hard for men to present that aura of cocky confidence when they're not happy. And I'm not truly happy right now. I'm not satisfied with my current situation. I hate that it feels like I'm going nowhere in my dissertation. It's really depressing. Truly. When I'm unhappy and when I don't respect myself, how the hell am I supposed to sell you on how great I am? There's so much ambivalence inside me. I know I'm a good guy with a lot to offer but I'm so ambitious and goal oriented (and hard on myself) that I've lost my mojo. And without my mojo, how will I find you? My mojo gives me the cocky charisma that lets me turn the charm on and really shine. Without it, I'm just a quiet guy that recedes into the shadows...
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Nathan,
First of all, I would like to congratulate you for this beautiful blog. Let me tell you, why I find it so beautiful...
I see a man who is very honest and sincere.. very brave as well...thank you for presenting your real self even though you say you are not so happy with it recently!
I believe that, all of us feel very similar time to time and that is very normal. Modern life seems to demand too much from people I guess and I can understand a young man's burden in it.
I share your first explanations and motto with all my heart and maybe I would like to add this; love emerges from love. When we learn to love (unconditionally), it will come to us in any form (as the love of lour life, as good friends, as good relations of any kind).
Nothing is holding you back from love; difficulties, stress, lack of material, etc. nothing... But only you... Your mind, your beliefs and your words...
I am praying for being relaxed, being in peace and expecting nothing but only giving... Giving love unconditionally...
I appreciate your generousity as offering me/us very cute presents (videos, music sites, your blog, etc) and appreciate your unique nature. Go ahead and get what you deserve!
Love is not hidden in the realm of wealth, success or physical appereance, the very power of it dwells inside of us. Let us discover that and remember how to represent it without any expectation...
With All My Sincerety,
Esra
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